I can't forget who I am, I won't forget where I came from. Too many experiences make up the many aspects of me but all of them ARE very much me. All seem to conceptualize, with their contrasts and similarities, ultimately who I am as a person, as a Muslimah. It's a long hard road and plenty of scrapes and bumps along the way. There is plenty more road to travel in this path, this walk that I am partaking in. Very slowly, very carefully along a winding road with perils to be foretold. But the trip I am willing to take, the trip I was chosen to take, by Allaah's grace.
I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a teacher, a friend, a confidante, an activist and advocate... amongst other titles. Outgoing and spirited, overly-opinionated and concerned; but before all, I am a servant of Allaah, the exalted. I am merely human, totally fallible, with fault and prone to error. I do not see myself as wise nor highly educated in Islam, by any means. I am merely dipping my feet and splashing in the water when it comes to knowledge, akin to children splashing in the shallow end of a pond. I try my best to openly accept nasihah and constructive criticism...However, I feel and have emotion also. So be kind.
My usual days involve my children and family, then some time for blogging and chatting with friends. After worship to Allah (through prayer, fasting, learning our beautiful deen) they are amongst the top priorities. So far it seems, my activities surround what my children are doing. I used to leave my children daily to walk into a cold, hard office. A full time employee, devoting my energies to another company forsaking my children, home life and social life. I decided that the best thing that I could do for myself and do for my children was to adjust and adjust I did. I've learned to readjust my priorities and its a difficult task. I involve myself in my husband and children (what a humbling experience this has been) and realize that this is exactly where I fit in. The transition was difficult, more difficult than I can explain but well worth it all. Now my family get's my time, rather than random strangers.
Where is the time for me, right?
It's there! I personally love painting, poetry, hiking, walking, bowling, fishing, skating... pretty much any and other family oriented activities. I do like my personal alone time (my youngest daughter likes to call it a woman's "circle time"). This involves hot tea, a healthy (or non-healthy lol) snack, a comfy blanket, a good book... with some well needed peace and quiet. I henna my nails (sometimes), curl my hair and buy sweet perfumes, just for me. I go walking, pick flowers and talk to the birds and insects I meet along the way. I haven't lost a sense of me... THAT unique sense of me that is irreplaceable. I've just finally figured out who the REAL ME is.
Hayakumullaah and welcome to my blog. I hope you enjoy my perusing as much as I enjoy sharing them with you all. Life has me busy sometimes, so I may not be here to update as much as I would like to... but when I do lookout!
May Allah reward you with goodness!
